Loving Each Turn

“It’s important to understand what is important to each of us. Expressed further, it is important to know what is most important. Once established, we need to engrave that in our bones, empower ourselves and take individual responsibility and not allow others to frame it for us. It is each of us completely. It is our mind, to its conclusion, within all the vicissitudes of life, all the disasters, all the mediocrities.” “Loving Each Turn” Senior’s Talk by Konrad Ryushin Marchaj, Osho Featured in Mountain Record Vol. 27.4, Summer 2009

It is easy to say what we think is most important to us, but our actions reveal the truth. I have competing values, such as compassion versus paying Sallie Mae back. I don’t want to be a deadbeat and obsessively pay my debts, but I can ignore panhandlers on street corners.

I try very hard not be a hypocrite. I’ve known too many to count, Christians that talk love and forgiveness, but will schism the church over a dispute regarding carpeting or break off a relationship with a left-leaning relative. Talk is cheap. Words are not magical, or even valuable, if not backed up with action.

The challenge is to be true to oneself, regardless of the flak one receives for it. Approval is for children and slaves. If you need someone else’s approval for anything whatsoever, you are in trouble. Be careful regarding debt because the borrower is servant to the lender.

Because I am in my forties, I feel like I need to get my act together. Life is too short to live according to others’ values. When facing midlife or some life-altering experience like cancer, priorities get pushed to the foreground. It’s not always a pretty picture.

 

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About cdhoagpurple

I live in Michigan. I was Greek Orthodox (and previously Protestant), but now am more Buddhist than anything. I am single now (through the till-death-do-you-part clause of the marriage contract). My husband Barry was a good man and celebrated 30 years in AA. I am overly educated, with an MBA. My life felt terminally in-limbo while caring for a sick husband, but I am free now. I see all things as being in transition. Impermanence is the ultimate fact of life. Nothing remains the same, good or bad.

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