Determination

“We are so prepared to surrender, to give up our own power. We have no idea how powerful we are. No sense of it. We’re endowed with an incredible mind, incredible potential, incredible strength, incredible determination. And we’re ready to give it up. There’s no other animal on the face of the earth that seems so willing to give up. Other animals will scuffle until they take care of the barrier or they’re crushed in the attempt.

“It’s that kind of determination that we need to settle the most difficult things we carry around with us. It’s no small thing, the things that we deal with–our demons, our barriers, our hesitancies, our fears, and our anger. Nobody is going to do it for us; nobody is capable of doing it for us. We must, of necessity, accomplish the barriers ourselves. When you really push “I can’t let go” to the edge and you finally do let go, the next time becomes that much easier. Each barrier you encounter is that much easier to deal with.” Can Do, Will Do, Done, Dharma Discourse by John Daido Loori Roshi, True Dharma Eye, Case 143, Touzi’s Clarification of the Ancestor’s Intention

I know that I have given my power away to various people at various times. I have regretted it every single time. No exceptions. It is always easier to give away one’s power than to take responsibility for one’s life. Emotional regression is an ever-present temptation.

This quote reminds me of exceptionally creative and determined dogs and cats that perform astounding feats to get to their treats, go outside, or whatever their goal may be. And then there are ninja squirrels that get to the food in the birdfeeder. I, sadly, have not always exhibited such determination. I am always asking myself, “Is this worth it?” I don’t get many yesses.

 

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About cdhoagpurple

I live in Michigan. I was Greek Orthodox (and previously Protestant), but now am more Buddhist than anything. I am single now (through the till-death-do-you-part clause of the marriage contract). My husband Barry was a good man and celebrated 30 years in AA. I am overly educated, with an MBA. My life felt terminally in-limbo while caring for a sick husband, but I am free now. I see all things as being in transition. Impermanence is the ultimate fact of life. Nothing remains the same, good or bad.

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