Yesterday, I was emotionally whipped because of finally getting the cancer-free declaration. I was more worried than even I realized.
Today, I woke up and felt amazingly better. I think it’s because I can start making plans like a normal human being. I was forced to put so much of my life on hold. Now I feel like something emotional is out of the way for me. I suddenly have a feeling of greater freedom and am not sure why. The externals of my life have not changed at all.
Everything is internal before it becomes external. I have made emotional room within myself. I have no idea what will fill it, but I will be careful in what I allow. Space/emptiness is beautiful.