“Return is the movement of the Tao.
Yielding is the way of the Tao.

All things are born of being.
Being is born of non-being.” Tao Te Ching, Stephen Mitchell Translation, chapter 40


Returning: The way of the Tao

Do you ever feel like you are on a long, spiral journey, moving in circles, yet always forward?

I was an atheist as a teenager.  I might be now. I don’t know. I know there is a spiritual dimension, but that isn’t quite the same thing as having a “Christian worldview” (aka, pre-scientific religious bias). I don’t know what I think, but I reserve the right to do so (that is, to think), anytime, anywhere.

The spirals I go in seem to get bigger with time, more inclusive of other people, cultures, and spiritualities. I am more esoteric than orthodox. In other words, the Sufis, Meister Eckhart, and Ramana Maharshi all speak to me in a way that the more traditional members of their religions do not. I am still interested in silence, stillness, and purity, but have found guidance in a great variety of traditions.

I grew up in a small town in Michigan (Potterville). I could see myself living in a small town once again, but in a different state or country. I identify with most people, even the most ignorant and intolerant, because, at one point or another, I have been just like them.

I am clearly returning, but to what? There is no going backward, but there is always the possibility of incorporating the best of the past into a new future.

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About cdhoagpurple

I live in Michigan. I was Greek Orthodox (and previously Protestant), but now am more Buddhist than anything. I am single now (through the till-death-do-you-part clause of the marriage contract). My husband Barry was a good man and celebrated 30 years in AA. I am overly educated, with an MBA. My life felt terminally in-limbo while caring for a sick husband, but I am free now. I see all things as being in transition. Impermanence is the ultimate fact of life. Nothing remains the same, good or bad.

One response to “Returning”

  1. Fred Rune Rahm says :

    Well said and written. I myself am not a theist at all, since I find it hard to believe in any God. But since I am no theist, I am no atheist either. The question of God belongs in the sphere of unknown, like Tao also do. So I guess i end up being an agnostic, leaving the question regarding God unanswered, unless some insight eventually make me change my view in one direction or the other.

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