Most Important Thing

I don’t know what my top priority should be. I have been reading this interesting book, Immunity to Change, by Robert Kegan and Lisa Lahey. One important concept is your “one big thing.” It sounds similar to Leo Babauta’s “Most Important Thing” (MIT).

I am feeling a huge sense of urgency, but not much direction. I am unsure how to find it.

This is how my sense of direction has come for the past decade or so. I don’t notice something for years. Then, for no apparent reason, it starts to annoy me. Then, I feel like I have to do something about it. For example, not having the computer skills I needed to find a job suddenly became a matter to deal with during the immediate enrollment period. Another example is getting rid of things. Why am I getting rid of things? Partly because I have no tolerance anymore for searching for things. If I cannot find something, I cannot use it at my convenience or enjoy it on my terms. The object becomes worthless if I cannot find it in the first place. It is pointless to buy new things if I cannot find the things I already have.

Now, something is driving me crazy and I don’t know what it is. And I’m not sure how to find out. Usually, I know what is driving me crazy.

This itself is an issue. This is high-leverage. If I can figure out what I need to do or learn, I can begin to get the ball rolling or at least start to overcome the obstacles to accomplish it. If I cannot figure out what my MIT is, how can I take proper steps?

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About cdhoagpurple

I live in Michigan. I was Greek Orthodox (and previously Protestant), but now am more Buddhist than anything. I am single now (through the till-death-do-you-part clause of the marriage contract). My husband Barry was a good man and celebrated 30 years in AA. I am overly educated, with an MBA. My life felt terminally in-limbo while caring for a sick husband, but I am free now. I see all things as being in transition. Impermanence is the ultimate fact of life. Nothing remains the same, good or bad.

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