Maybe Really Buddhist Now
Something is Working.
Tonight I realized I forgot an appointment yesterday. I instantly felt shame. It is no wonder I forgot something because my brain has been overloaded.
Then, I thought, “Wait. How can I help myself feel better, seeing as I cannot fix the problem at this hour? I know: metta practice.”
Later, I did some metta and felt better. No need for shaming myself or an analysis of the shame.
I think I might truly be Buddhist now. I may have crossed some sort of threshold.