Desiring Right Intention
I have been reading about right intention. I saw the question “Does your desire to make changes in your life come from wholesome motivation or unresolved issues?”
I am interested in intention right now because it seems so central. I am unsure what kinds of changes I am capable of making right now. But is that a cop-out? I want to have harmless intentions. I do not want to create unnecessary suffering.
The flip-side is that I feel like I am responding (reacting?) to changing circumstances the best I can. And I find myself surrounded by people that seem to live in the 1970s or 1980s. My actions seem rash and selfish to people living in the past. Perhaps, if I had done some of the things back then that I am contemplating now, those actions would have been rash. They would have seemed un-called-for. However, in 2014, my alternatives have changed (expanded in some areas and contracted in others) greatly in the past ten or fifteen years. I have options today I didn’t have ten years ago and, conversely, there are options that have vanished in that same decade.
Can I make my intentions pure? Is that possible?
I have made the worst choices over the years from unresolved issues. I partly became an Orthodox Christian out of my childhood unmet needs. The problem: these issues were completely subconscious at the time and I only started to sort them out after a decade of being in that church. I had to get completely out in order to see the issues clearly. Is there a way of seeing these issues prior to making these huge, life-altering choices? This is the kind of wisdom I am seeking.

About cdhoagpurple

I live in Michigan. I was Greek Orthodox (and previously Protestant), but now am more Buddhist than anything. I am single now (through the till-death-do-you-part clause of the marriage contract). My husband Barry was a good man and celebrated 30 years in AA. I am overly educated, with an MBA. My life felt terminally in-limbo while caring for a sick husband, but I am free now. I see all things as being in transition. Impermanence is the ultimate fact of life. Nothing remains the same, good or bad.

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