Detachment versus Intimacy
I am confused. I have read so many things about the Buddhist ideal of detachment and other things regarding being one (intimate) with whatever task one may be part of. If I give myself wholeheartedly to my task at hand, how am I detached?
Right now, I would really like some detachment. Taking care of Barry is taking a toll emotionally. I refuse to turn away. I am doing what needs to be done, taking one day at a time.
By throwing myself into my tasks, I am on an emotional roller coaster. The upside is that, no matter how depressed or angry I get, my feelings change. No feeling, no matter how distressing, is forever. I don’t think there is a way to live my life at a detached emotional distance, however desirable that sounds at times.
Is there a way to be intimate with and somehow detached at the same time from a task? Intimacy seems to be a Zen principle, which seems incompatible with my idea of the Buddhist principle of detachment.