Learning to Look Intuitively

I’ve been looking within for answers. For example, I am letting go of getting the windows installed. I didn’t get them installed this past week because it rained. It may rain again this week on the day they are scheduled. It is completely out of my hands.

Also, I’ve had a rash since my mom and I did some serious yard clean up. Perhaps it is poison ivy. I decided to look at it through the eyes of intuition. What do I see? Very angry skin. Am I angry at something? Absolutely. I am furious with life. I feel like I cannot go right, left, up, or down. I have had to let go of the itch. It has been unbelievably hard. I woke up one night with my skin itching so badly that it hurt. I have never had an itch of that magnitude. I had been using hydrocortisone cream on it, which helps a little. So I tried vitamin E, which also helps a little. Then I saw online to use vitamin D lotion. I don’t have vitamin D lotion. But I do have vitamin D capsules. So this morning, I busted open some capsules and smeared them on my hands and arms. It is now about six hours later and the difference is huge. Most, not all, of the itch is gone and the rash is visibly less red and angry. Wow.

I believe that what made the difference are the vitamin D and the letting go. What made me think of busting open some capsules and smearing them? I believe that was the intuition.

I have to let go. I have to dig deep to find a clue. I have to turn off my hyper-rational brain. That is where Zen comes in.

Learning to interpret things intuitively is new, but doable. Plus, I don’t feel like life is giving me many options right now. It is almost like, “You will learn how to view the world intuitively or else you be stuck forever.” That’s what it feels like, at least.

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About cdhoagpurple

I live in Michigan. I was Greek Orthodox (and previously Protestant), but now am more Buddhist than anything. I am single now (through the till-death-do-you-part clause of the marriage contract). My husband Barry was a good man and celebrated 30 years in AA. I am overly educated, with an MBA. My life felt terminally in-limbo while caring for a sick husband, but I am free now. I see all things as being in transition. Impermanence is the ultimate fact of life. Nothing remains the same, good or bad.

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