Denial’s Consequences

I feel like I am watching multiple train wrecks. I shake my head all day long. All these things cannot be happening simultaneously.

I found out my oldest brother went to the emergency room. This must have been traumatic for his wife. Nothing is harder than seeing your loved one in a lot of pain and not knowing what the hell is going on. Is he dying? Does he have some rare cancer? Uhhhhhhh……no. He had a bad case of diverticulitis. When Ma told me, I was flabbergsted. He was in a great deal of abdominal pain and so went to the ER. They did a colonoscopy on him and he has a bad infection, so they put him on antibiotics.

Are you kidding me? I have diverticulosis, which is the same little pouches in the intestine, without the inflammation and infection. Millions, if not billions, of humans on this planet have diverticulosis. Many, if not most, never find out. If you drink enough water and consume a sufficiently high-fiber diet, you probably will never have a problem. I take Metamucil. I try to eat plenty of fruits and vegetables. I also drink lots of water. I found out i had it in my late thirties. I followed my doctor’s advice. Problem solved.

I see this as like getting a hangnail, having it get infected, having it get gangrene, being in a lot of pain, and going to the ER. Now the issue is more serious: do we amputate the finger? So much drama.

This is what happens when you ignore your health for decades. Like I said, I feel sorry for my sister-in-law, not my brother. To watch your husband be miserable is not fun. Been there, done that.

At the same time, we are having multiple natural disasters at the same time. Hurricane Sally did a number on Mississippi, Alabama, and Georgia. And then there are the fires on the west coast. The fires are so bad that the smoke made it to Michigan. We had some gorgeous sunsets. Everything had that French impressionist haze.

Trump was told by a California scientist that climate change was causing everything to be warmer and exacerbate these natural disasters. His response? “Things will get cooler.” OMG. What a moron. The scientist said the science does not agree. Trump said that science is wrong. No, you imbecile for a President. You are wrong!

The Buddha actually had a sermon called “The Fire Sermon” about how the whole world is set aflame with the fires of anger, greed, and ignorance. And now the world actually is on fire!

The problem with denial is that the person in denial simply abdicates responsibility for the situation, thereby forcing everyone else to do their dirty work. The situation goes downhill. Little, manageable problems become unsolvable.

How do you watch multiple train wrecks simultaneously and not lose your mind? I don’t know.

About cdhoagpurple

I live in Michigan. I was Greek Orthodox (and previously Protestant), but now am more Buddhist than anything. I am single now (through the till-death-do-you-part clause of the marriage contract). My husband Barry was a good man and celebrated 30 years in AA. I am overly educated, with an MBA. My life felt terminally in-limbo while caring for a sick husband, but I am free now. I see all things as being in transition. Impermanence is the ultimate fact of life. Nothing remains the same, good or bad.

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