A theme keeps recurring. Part of me feels like I am flopping around without a point or purpose, but then something happens to remind me of what I can do at this point. What can I do that’s so important? I can be available.
That sounds so obvious, but what could be more profound? Earlier today, I took Barry to a meeting and a friend of his informed me that they would be late getting out of the meeting and not to worry. No problem. I just sat in the lobby and waited. It turned out that the friend had gotten some bad news from the doctor and wanted to tell a select few, which included Barry. Where do I come into the picture? I am Barry’s transportation and not creating a distraction gives them an opportunity to be available to each other.
Then we got home and the phone rang. It was my friend who is studying for the bar exam. She was panicking and wanted to know which of the various urgent priorities she was dealing with would be at the top of my list if I were her. I talked her through the emotional distress. She felt better.
At this point in my life, I do have certain experiences under my belt and some degree of wisdom. That is what I have to offer an overwhelmed world. People seek me out. I don’t need to seek out opportunities as much as I used to. People are more aware of what I can do. Keeping my cool and being logical give me experience helping others that could not be gotten from a more emotional acquaintance.
It’s not like I spent today passively waiting for someone to want my assistance. I went to various big box stores to get environmentally-friendly cleaning supplies. I am still chipping away at my own goals of being more organized and clean.
It’s about what I can do, but it’s more about who I am. When my Orthodox Christian friend seeks advice from this budding Buddhist, that says everything, as far as I’m concerned.